I don’t like myself. I just don’t. If I had the chance to be born again in a different body, I would. I’m too skinny, flat-chested and ugly. I don’t want to go on like this. Everyday I’m in constant pain, thinking that people will leave my side because I’m just not good enough. I wish I could be like all the pretty girls here that post nudes of themselves. They look so confident… I always think my boyfriend will leave me for one of them, and even though he says he won’t, I can’t seem to trust him. I feel alone, hopeless… I hate myself
If you came across this, please take some time to read it if you can. I hope it helps
"Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels"
Yes, there is something better: Life.
If you’re reading this and you’re facing an eating disorder, you probably think I’m about to judge you, but I’m not. We’re all humans and we all have our inner demons, we just have to learn how to face them. But if there’s something I hate is thinspo. It makes people think they’re not worth it if they don’t have a certain amount of weight or look a certain way. It makes people feel ugly and insecure. And you lnow why it concerns me so much? Because I look like a thinspo model.
Yup, I have collarbones, hipbones and a gap between my tighs. But I don’t starve myself to death, nor I exercise like a fitness freak. Actually, it’s the other way around. I eat junk food all week long and the maximum effort I do all day is to walk from my room to the kitchen. The reason I’m so skinny is because I was born that way, it’s in my DNA. But these topics do affect me.
Whenever I see thinspo, ana or mia related posts on my Tumblr or Instagram I wonder “What if one of these girls saw me?” They would think “I want to be her!” And starve themselves to death while trying to look like me or a model they just saw on a magazine.
As a person who can’t help being skinny, I hate to think I’m setting a bad example for people out there. That’s why I made this post. So people will know there’s somebody that cares.
Girls think that once they’re skinny, their insecurities will be all gone. Little do they know our inner monsters consume us if we let them. There are sometimes I feel ugly (Yes, skinny people are insecure too) and that’s something that eats me up inside everytime. My self-esteem is really low, even though I’m working on it and getting better. I get bullied for being too skinny (I weigh 45 kg, dunno what’s that in pounds), because not everybody has the same beauty standards, so if someone thinks you’re not pretty just because your weight isn’t right for them, then fuck them. I can guarantee you there’s somebody that will love you for who you are, but you have to learn to accept yourself first. Nobody will think you’re pretty if you don’t think so. Don’t let society standards fuck up your life, because we all know society is pretty fucked up itself. If you want to lose weight, do it the healthy way, because if you starve, you’re only gonna get to show off that smokin’ body in your funeral and death isn’t pretty chic.
If it hurts you, it’s not worth it. Anorexia and bulimia are like abusive boyfriends that beat the hell out of you, so don’t be the little wimpy girl that keeps coming back to them. You’re way better than that.